Trying to keep things in perspective

"Faith never gives up. It knows that despite appearances, all is well. It can wait without signs or significant indications that God is at work, because it is sure of Him. ...Postponements are reasons to pray rather than grow anxious, impatient, and annoyed. They're opportunities for God to build those imperishable but hard-to-acquire qualities of humility, patience, serenity and strength. God never says, "Wait awhile," unless He is planning to do something in our situation- or in us. He waits to be gracious. So take heart! If God's answer tarries, "wait for it; because it will surely come" (David Roper for 'Our Daily Bread July 29 Sunday)

Someone posted this on one of the bulletin boards that I read. It is what Raymond and I are striving for in our attitude towards the wait for our referral. Faith that ,even though we have no daily reminder, a baby is going to enter our family in the (hopefully) near future.

It reminds me of when I was 1st pregnant with Will. I did not have morning sickness and there was really no physical daily indicator I was pregnant. All I had was the positive test stick from the home test I had taken. So I kept the home test stick on the bathroom counter, to remind me I was pregnant.

It feels similar in that I have to keep reminding myself that we are expecting a baby. I don't look pregnant (that can be a matter of opinion), I don't feel pregnant, but I am. So I try to keep reminding my self I am. I keep up with the adoption BBs and I am reading books about adoption and bonding. But it is hard at times to find a balance between reminding myself about the baby, and not dwelling on the wait.