Now I know why

Okay, now I know why I am in such a hurry to get this adoption thing done. I WANT ANOTHER BABY! Tada! We were with some of our friends this weekend and they have kids the same ages as ours and they just had a baby about 2 months ago. And after spending 2 full days with them, it came to me..." I want our baby" That is why I am in such a hurry, I want our family to grow. That is why we are adopting. We are not trying to do some noble or "wonderful" thing and "save" a child. We want another child to raise and love and snuggle and feed and change and get up with at night and all of those things. I just want another one. It's great that there are children that need a home and we can fill that need, but truthfully, the driving force for why we are adopting is selfish, we just want another baby.
I know this is why Raymond and I felt so strongly that he should have his "procedure" when he did. This is God's plan for our family. And if we had not followed our hearts, we would have gotten pregnant again, truly it would have been easier. But now our desire for another child is so strong and this is the way we are suppose to add to our family. Our baby, the one God has created for us, is probably getting ready to be born right now. And I know we are going to get the baby that is meant to be ours.