Not gonna happen.

After phone calls on top of phone calls, we have just found out that Social Services has found another placement for the 2 girls that we thought we would be foster parents for. The short story is that the county we live in (and where the girls are in a foster home now) is willing to get us approved for foster care, but the county the girls are from (not the county we live in) is not willing to bet on us and wait for us to be approved. Even though we are a good bet, since we have already gone through a home study and background checks to adopt Hope, and we would be approved right around the time the girls will need placement. Very disappointing...more for the girls than us..but still disappointing.

So now what?

Now we ask ourselves questions.

Why did we feel lead down this path?
How do we feel about becoming foster parents?
Should we continue with the training to become foster parents?
Now? Later? Ever?
What kinds and how many kids do we feel capable of handling?
How old?
Do we really just want to adopt again?
Foster-Adopt? International? Special needs?

You see how this could go on and on.

Time. I think time is what is next. Time to heal from this experience. Time to pray. Time to ask ourselves and each other these questions and probably more.